"Today I will delete from my diary two days...Yesterday and Tomorrow
Yesterday was to learn...and Tomorrow will be a Consequence of what I can do today.
Today I will face life with the conviction that this day that this day will never return.
Today is the last opportunity I have to live intensely: as no one can assure me that I will see tomorrow's sunrise.
Today I will be brave enough not to let any opportunity pass me by, my only alternative is to succeed.
Today I will invest my most valuable resource, my time, my life.
Today I will spend each minute passionately to make today a different and unique day in my life.
Today I will defy every obstacle that appears on my trusting I will succeed.
Today I will resist pessimism and will conquer the world with a smile, with the positive attitude of expecting always the best.
Today I will make of every ordinary task a sublime expression.
Today I will have my feet on the ground understanding reality and the stars gaze to invent my future.
Today I will take the time to be happy and will leave my footprints and my presence in the hearts of others.
Today I invite you to begin a new season where we can dream that everything we undertake is possible and we fulfill it, with joy and dignity.
Today take the time to hug someone, tell them you love them, smile and be happy."

I post this on my refrigerator next to "The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time," a picture of my nephew, Mokie Joe's Ken, and a picture of my sister's & my dogs playing in the backyard.

Sometimes, I forget that they are there. Usually when I need to remember them the most. I will work at remembering.

When I started this blogging business, I told myself to only post happy thoughts... the world has more than enough sadness to go around without me adding to it. I will tell you that yesterday was rough, and excellent at the same time. I will spare you the details. Today, will be even better. I insist.

I have to go to my hometown on the morrow anyway to get my resume updated...I'll do that, then make the rounds to whoever is still around.
May miss the younger friends & family, but will swing by the nursing homes & do what I can do...2 round trips to that lil' berg is a full tank of gas, & these days, we have to change our views on road trips.

Today, I will surf the Stream, read a book, nap & try to get over this headache/sore throat thingy, & @ 4p.m., go w/Bubba & his Mom over to Bubba's youngest son's rather spectacular house & help celebrate the 1 yr birthday of the twins...Zachery & Zoe. Near as I can tell, I dig the concept more than Bubba or his Mom, but she's real nervous with Altzeheimers, and Bubba, well, I guess it is a guy thing. We won't stay long, & if the punkins are in good moods, I might be able to hold one or maybe even both of 'em. That is always so great when they are not crying. It's all I can do to take care of myself...the main reason that I never had kids. That, & my ex always told me that if I got pregnant that he "knew the way to Canada" and he "knew the way to Mexico" & he would be gone & I'd be on my own. Must've been true love, huh? He was a very sick man who was very instrumental in making me a very sick woman. Man, whatta schmuck. He re-married quickly after the divorce. They moved to Alaska where she had 2 kids right away & was told not to have a third. I know him...his motto was "condoms are like taking a bath with your socks on," so the woman takes all responsibility for birth control, meanwhile sex was a nightly woman's duty. When his new wife had her 3rd child, alone in Alaska, he was scuba-diving in Hawaii. I dunno if the marriage lasted. I find it doubtful...but, she could have been even sicker than I was. Poor woman...

At my wedding in Golden Gate Park, Billyjones took me by the shoulders and pleaded, "Don't do this...you will regret it the rest of your life." He was so right...I answered him, "I've got to make my own mistakes..." Like, I knew it was a mistake, but kept walking blindly into it. Billy was so right. I was so sick.

Did a mile and a half on the treadmill...@ a 3.5 incline, speed set @ 3.2, burning roughly 130 calories. I feel better, but still got this thingy...the older you get, the harder it is to kick these thingys. So it is another good angle on not visiting the folks, today-I'm still in that first 48 hrs of whatever it is ,& if it isn't psycohsomatic, it could be contagious. Upon reflection, I dunno about holding the twins. hmmmmmmmm.

Anyway, I am taking it ez today...keeping things loose, keeping them tight. a lil power nap sounds promising. after all, I'm on vacation!

Oh, I've been meaning to mention that Bubba's oldest boy has applied for a pit crew/race car detailing job with Nascar.He has been told he will have no problems getting the job & iot is just a matter of time. He will have to be in North Carolina 2 wks after his hiring date, uproooting his life, his wife & their 2 kids. This should be intresting...Nascar is almost the new Rock n Roll...& Larry Lee is such a good looking kid...his wife is a real beauty, too, but it will definitely be life in the fast lane for them...whatever, they've got to do it while they're young!

I slept almost 11 hours last nite...deep, & full of nice dreams already forgotten. Waking up is so hard to do, but I came around.

Now, I'm gonna hit the treadmill, hit the shower, grab Rex & we will hit the road to make our Sunday rounds & do the best I can do. I'm pretty sure all I have is a lil' cold and a lot of stage fright for up coming adventures in job hunting. I got this great e-card from my sister, saying she knew I could break out of my shell & do it(my Mom always called me her lil' turtle & the card was just that...a skeert turtle breaking outta her shell...and I got a just wonderful e-mail of encouragement & common sense from my older brother(the engineer who gave me this computer) so kind, saying, in essence, the love I give is equal to the love I get. That if I go out job hunting with negative vibes, the HR folks will pick up on my vibes & it'll come back to me...so don't break the pavement, don't try too hard, enjoy the Spring and learn from my experiences...it was an awesome e-mail. I am blown away.

Learning to love yourself appears to be a never ending quest-but, I'm on it.

gotta go...places to go, people to see, positive vibes to spread.

"Talk about things you like to do... You got to have a dream, if you don't have a dream, how you gonna make your dreams come true?"

"Are ya havin'any fun? Whatcha gettin outta livin if you're not havin' any fun?"

"A dream is a wish your heart makes.."

"You've got to roll with the punches to get to what's real...'

"Shower the people you love with love. Show them the way that you feel...'

& FOREVER MY MOTTO: "The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time. Any fool can do it, there ain't nuthun' to it..."

As always, here are my belated Friday facts..comin' up on Saturday evening. Y'all know thatI run on hippie time...it is what it is, and I am what I am...
Cher's 5 Funky Facts(are they supposed to be fun, too?)
I'll try:
1) To my horror,I am starting to join Bubba in watching "Deal Or No Deal." It remains scary for me to get into game shows. My Mom was quite the game show addict & we were discouraged from visiting during "Wheel of Fortune" &/or "Jeporday." & If we had the poor tast to visit during these game shows, she became ill-tempered, and let it be known that we were to be seen & not heard...no talking!
Now, I like Howie Mandel (a lot), & this game show does not take rocket surgery, but I'll never get over feeling so bad for the folks that get their hopes so high, only to have Lady Luck dash them on the rocks...I never dug gambling either, for similar reasons...I just feel bad watching folks lose. I don't like any game show, but I don't hate this one, and as I need to spend quality time with Bubba, & he never misses his "show", I am spending more time watching it & less time complaining about it. 'Cept I also HATE the sound of that phone ringing with the banker's offers...I just hate phones ringing. Couldn't they make their offers without the irritating ring-a-ding-ding of the phone? I'd really rather blog. But you knew that.

2)Took my temperature, & it's 99.4...could be worse, but it is a pisser, nonetheless. Had 2 glasses of OJ, & 2 of cranberry juice & chased it with some heavily peppered tomato soup...a vitamin C extravaganza... Will have my Lean Cuisine Salmon after I post this, cuz the Omega-3 can't hurt, & I have salmon about 4-5 nights a week from Lean Cuisine, & it makes me feel like I'm doing something good for myself. I pretty much live off of Lean Cuisine. I've grown accustomed to it & even dig it. Gonna hate it big time when some stupid study reveals that it is bad for me. But they always seem to find some study that disses what I eat, or take the TV shows I love off the air...other than "House" & "My Name is Earl", I'd rather be blogging. But you knew that.

3) My "adopted" brother, Billyjones circulated this e-mail to many folks saying that I was his oldest & dearest friend, and a part of his family. It was magnificent. I cried for joy, then felt overwhemingly unworthy... But again, I diss myself. I love Billyjones (we never slept together. ever. you can't sleep with your brother!), but I feel so unworthy of his love & kind words...why me? I'm just an old hippie sluggo. Billy is a Physician's Assistant in South Carolina, w/3 wonderful chidren, a new beautiful wife, and a new wonderful life...and he still makes the extra effort to let me know he loves me. I wish that I thought of myself as highly as Billy thinks of me, as Bubba & my family & my other friends do...then, I'd be fearless about job hunting Monday. As it is, I'm scared spitless. It must be some kinda drain bamage...I had a great childhood, but I married an emotionally abusive, narcissistic, sumawitchin' sick & selfish, power-crazed excuse for a man, & the marriage lasted almoast a decade. But I ought to be over the pain he caused me by now...shouln't I? I just gotta kick this low self-esteem I gots in de buttinski. Don't I, Donutz? And Mary Elizabeth? & Bubba? & Billyjones?...Billy loves me-I must be worthy...why do I not see why? Why do I carry this humble humility crap to the point of pain? Geeez, Cher-get over it! I'm makin' my own soap opera, here...whattaschmuck!

4) I am eating dark chocolate right now, this very minute to fight de bluze... I gots a fever, da blue come included at no extra charge...I need all de help I kin git. Dark chocolate is still legal, isn't it?

5)Bubba & I are Science Fiction nerds....he asks what movie do I want to watch & my answer is always the same,"Something with monsters in it." We own all 8 seasons of "Stargate", and are anxiously awaiting the release of Season 9. Love the original movie'Stargate"...the "Terminators," the "Predators," the "Aliens", the "Jurassic Parks." I used to write fan letters to Robert Heinlen, and when living in Oakland, CA, I took a junior college course in Science Fiction. All the other nerds though I was the nerdist...I've never been to a convention or dressed up like a charecter from a Sci-Fi movie, & they had...I just like to watch. We've got all the "Tremors" movies, too. Anything with monsters, especially if it's a script with a sense of humor-"Godzilla" was great, but we hated "King Kong." So maybe, there is some hope for us, afterall. We just ain't looking for it.
whew!
Sometimes I get carried away...

I think Lucy fixed my e-mail-blogstream incommunicado problem...I'm getting e-mail from the Stream again & that is so cool!!!!! I gotta go feed this fever now. Bubba's got some fruit cocktail minus the high fructose corn syrup...it's getting late..dunno, might skip de salmon, save it for a rainy day...chow down on some Craisens vitamin C, almonds & a lil more chocolate. Maybe a little popcorn with a monster movie tonite...better make it quick. I start to fade away by 9:30, & it is a real feat to make it to 10...this gettin' old stuff ain't for sissies.

Hey guyz, "you'll never know how much I really love you...you'll never know how much I really care...'

you'll never know how much finding da Stream means to me, and the quality that it has added to my life.

Cripes...Last nite, I thought McVomit's salad tasted a lil off, but I thought it was me I kept on feeling a lil off...so off, I went offline...unplugged my computer so Buubba could use the phone & kept it unplugged. Sore throat, achey joints...what? Too much Dr McGrumpy on "House"? (it was a 2-nighter this week...)...then, once again, da" Return Of Da Migraine." Not a full blown migraine, just enough to piss me off...Bubba had one, too & I thought it might be the weather, as it often is. Achey joints? Middle aged manual laboring hippie chick...sore throat? I dunno...this A.M., I gots a full blown big-time Owie all over, after chills all night long...& now,I'm the grumpy one(Bubba was watching some Sat A.M. cartoons & I begged him to off them as those cutsey wootsey, high pitched whinney voices irritated me to no end). He teased me about being so touchy, but as he really was not paying attention to the tube, he kindly offed it. And the silence is golden...and I prefer it to music...I MUST BE SICK! AGAIN! On my first day of vacation...I didn't even get on line until after 1 p.m. today...again, proof positive that I must be sick. On a Saturday morning I am always surfin de Stream by 6:45 A.M... Years ago, a doctor told me that I was a "border-line anemic"...these days, I'm thinking I crossed that border into full blown anemia...geez...it is always something...Now it is something else again. and I'm on vacation! resting, drinking lots of fluids & wallowing in self pity. It often bites, being me...it seems...let me take a break, drink some OJ & try to improve this downer trip I'm on, cuz it ain't pretty...& I have some positive things that I want to do & say, if only I can conquer my owies. Tylenol is the great white lie, BTW ya' know? after 2 doses of 2, I be down & still struggling with this cold/flu/virus/owie/crappola...O.K....project O.J... love on da puppies & I'll be back soon with something more positive to say...like my hippie time 5 for Friday entry...& the fact that I think that Lucy (my hero!heroine?) fixed my e-mail/blogstream communication problem...& THAT"S a good thimg!