& that's what I got. After that week long migraine, I still have difficulty rotating my neck to the right. & I gotta be able to do that in order to drive my new big, red truck.(We're gonna call her "Old Yeller").

So, my friend, Jeannie loaned me her "Dr Ho's" electrical stimulation set up...jump-startin those traumatized Cervical Spine muscles in 4 different modes, even as I type. It is strange, though not altogether unpleasant...& I 've got the leads placed to where I can feel the stim working. How come the doc doesn't try this with me? Jeannie says it has helped her out a lot...she has 2 set-ups or she wouldn't be able to loan me one. It feels good, in a strange sort of jumpy way Wow...I just turned it up..lots of involuntary muscle activation. Could this be "it"?

The pain clinic called. They want to schedule another needle work session(pain block). More than $5L per session, & the first 2 have not had a lasting effect in any stretch of the imagination. If the 3rd session fails to work, then they want to go in and laser burn the effected areas(unclear what they will do with the eye trigger point & involved nerves). The needlework alone can kill me...so why mess w/a 3rd time @ bat? Just how dangerous is the laser & WHY ARE THEY PUSSY-FOOTING around? My step mother had pain block treatments & they only worked for a year or so.> $15LARGE for some thing that MIGHT work for a year or so? Sorry, but I want the pills...

The adventure continues.

Why not just pain killers? It is less invasive. And I now understand how the evil dude got so evil. He was in a lot of pain. And he needs to solve that problem, not I. I've quite obviously got problems of my own to contend with, thank you very much. He is funny, in a sad way now. Puppy dog, suffering beautifully especially when I am around. And looking so guilty, cuz he knows he did me wrong, and it ain't happening again.

20 minutes up on the e-stim. I'll wait an hour & give myself another 20 treatment before I crash. I can fully complete the range of motion of my neck, now. I need to have this machine around when I have a migraine, and see whassup then...Man, I don't want a 3rd unsuccessful try with the needles. I gotta talk to the doc before he does that again. And my sister, Kathy wants to come with me to ensure that I don't get stage-fright(again) & just agree with the doc's persuasive arguements. I find it hard to argue with any one, any time. That's a fault, this I know, but it is kind of late in life to be changing my spots anymore than I already have, ys' know?

I cannot believe how good my life is. My car is @ the junkyard. I drove Bubba's car to work today, the one with the faulty alternator, & it broke down in the fog on a country road. Bubba was there within 10 minutes. He slammed in a new battery, & I went on to work & played catch-up & never did get caught up.

But I was jazzed all day,& I ducked out early to redevous w/Bubba, and get my new truck. A big, bright red, Chevy Silverado. Just the basics, but a serious truck, nontheless. I am just so blown away...whatta great guy.

One of the guys @ work told me that I was looking at it all wrong-that Bubba knew that I was worthy of such an investment. That Bubba was counting on us staying together for good. But, still, I do not feel worthy. I didn't see this coming. He really loves me & I can not get over it...he bought me a truck! Whassup with that?

One of the girls @ work told me that I was leading the life that she was supposed to have led. What a concept. She was primarily envious of the time I spent in the San Francisco Bay Area & all the rock'n roll I've seen, some of the mistakes I've made. But still, figuring that she needed a boyfriend that would let her live her life, be happy, and buy her a truck. I had never looked at my life that way until she put into her words. I see a lot of screw-ups and missed opportunities. She sees a life she would like to have. It is all in one's perspective. It all depends on how you are feeling, the kind of day you have been having, the life you have led, the secrets you don't know...there's lots about me no one knows...no one needs to know...heck, even I don'tknow why I do the things I do, or have done

I just keep having all these adventures. The adventure continues. Tomorrow I start the part of my life when I will be referred to as that truck drivi'n, woman. I can see it all, now. How folks will refer to me when I'm not around..."that old blonde truck drivi'n hippie chick. You know, that Deadhead, Cher..." then, I don't want to know or guess anymore about what folks may say. Ignorance really is bliss.

Just before the radio died this morning, it was playing "Layla", and I was grinning like an idiot, remembering the chills I felt backstage @ Clapton, dancing with Carlos Santana. Next thing I know, I'm broke down. Next thing, I'm getting rescued by the love of my life. Suddenly, I'm at work, busting butt to catch up until I am too overcome with excitement to hang out as long as I should, & I literally run out of the building, to a home the man I love has built from the ground up for us & our 3 dogs. We dash down the road, and pick me up a big red truck & come back to the home I love, & spoil the aforementioned dogs & the adventure continues on the morrow.

I better get some sleep.

My migraine has left me weary, but I got 'er done. Made the rounds-saw best friend Deb, wearing sunglasses in her kitchen. Visited w/sister Kathy, saw Mom, got her outta bed to smoke her precious 2 cigarettes & then, got her back in bed w/o a problem. Picked up KFC for Dad & Rene, then enroute to their nursing home, the "VOLTS" light lit up in Bubba's car. Called him from my cell to his, & he says I have to cut my visit short in order to be home before dark. Delivered the KFC, did my kissy face thing with Dad & Rene & explained my situation, & bowed out after volunteering one of the aides to prepare the dinner for them...Made it home, Bubba put the car on the charger so I can drive to work in the AM, I , again, slapped an ice pack on my head (Bubba always tells me "Nice hat" as I do my balancing act), and returned to the Stream in my darkened bedroom, "nice hat" intact. Do I lead a charmed life or what? Sure it is a drag to have repetitive migraines, but my life is so good compared to so many other folk's & so much better than it used to be... As John said, here's the adventure, make the best of it(or words to that effect), and don't waste what precious little time you have complaining-he told me something akin to that.

Rex is an incredible K-9 companion. Meets & greets any & all, spreading cheer, getting pet & admired. He cushions any stress from me, the folks, the staff, the other residents...and he just loves to go on rounds & visit, be admired & come home...I am so grateful BUBBA ok'd taking him in when my Mom could no longer function w/o professional nursing. He is, indeed, a golden-haired gift from God, as are my red-headed Boxer(Peggy Sue) & Wiener Retrieve (Ramble On Rose).

So ,it was, & still is, a painful day, but @ least it was productive. I have no guilt, and that is rare. Once, I had a friend tell me that "If you didn't feel guilty, you wouldn't know how to feel," before hanging up on me. Boy, did that make me feel guilty.

But not today. Day is almost done, I pick up my new truck tomorrow @ 3. I have to work & am not prepared, but will put one foot in front of the other & do the best that I can do tomorrow, and it will all hopefully end as well as today did, if I just allow it to "Let It Be."

I best rest & change ice packs, and downplay the lights. Cannot wait to crash & give tomorrow another try. It's a good life, even when I have to wear sun glasses in the house...it's all good. Tanks to one & all for the kind words of encouragement & well-wishers.

I just love Blogstream...So glad I made it...

HAPPY NEW YEARS DAZE TO ALL

Took SHOWER...THE PAIN IS MANAGEABLE,,,i AM ON MY WAY. hOPE i GET A CHANCE TO SURF THE STREAM WHEN I GET HOME...THANKS FOR THE THOUGHT, ICE. AS THESE PAIN BLOCKS DON'T REALLY SEEM TO DO THE TRICK, I SHALL JUST HAVE TO DO MY BEST WHILE IN PAIN. dON'T WE ALL?

Please. What is up with me & these migraines? As I balance the laptop on my lap, an ice pack balanced on my head. 2 Tylenol 2 hrs ago, and just now 1 Aleeve. Man, am I learning the lesson of my silliness in such a hard way. Day after day.

I just gotta go make the rounds today. I just gotta...Missed last week w/the folks due to a flu. Just can't miss 'em again. Not during the Holidays. Bubba said I shoulda gone Saturday, when I felt a lil better. My neck is stiff from the 3-day migraine. This AM, the whole thing is back full tilt boogie.

Gotta go lie down in the dark...whatever I do, I will have to deal with it in the next 2 hrs. The folks are doing well. I NEED to go see them. But I probably should not drive....I dunno, I just dunno.